Happy Sorren’s Life

There were two things that made me really sad today but because I received so many blessings and I know that people say things because that’s just the way they are or they have some things that they protect like their own heart and peace of mind that they become very defensive or hurt people just to feel the power over others… with that which I am also guilty of I forgive them and I move on with my life.

I can’t deny on the other hand that I’m hurt because my intensions and actions are being questioned or scrutinized that I tend to prove them wrong and suffer the consequence of my words before. That’s why it is always good not to utter hurtful words because it will not do any good for someone’s heart.

I learn everyday. I will start now as a new beginning. I’m so thankful that God gave me a happy heart that forgives. It cries but it smiles.

Every second counts… am so nervous right now. I want things to be perfect. I want to make sure that it will work. I like to end the nuisance disturbance.

It’s okay to be sad sometimes.

It’s okay to cry a little bit.

It’s okay not to consider what others may think.

It’s okay to make mistakes.

It’s okay to live.

It’s okay to be scared.

It’s okay to be in love.

It’s okay to sing.

It’s okay to be crazy.

It’s okay to be foolish every once in a while.

It’s okay to fight.

It’s okay to say sorry.

It’s such a crazy June. I am finally 27 but shocks I am still childish in some manners. I still can’t perfect work. I hope I get things done the way they should be done. I can do this. One more week and this month is finally over. I hope the stupid feeling and bad thoughts and actions be resolved… ah the imperfection of the human heart.

I don’t like unpleasant things to happen. I pray that everybody will be happy. I hope that no one will ever feel that he’s not loved. I hope everybody will be more compassionate and understanding and that grumpiness and pride are not a great foundation for living.

I wonder what the future holds. Sometimes, I felt like I lived my life with no regrets at all that I am finally at ease with the fact that I’ve got everything I needed. Now, I can tell God that His will be done. There are more things that I want to do, but I take them each day. I am in love with living and enjoying the moment. I hope everybody will have the feeling of peace and love in my heart right now.

I’m still high for watching the t.v. series “It Started With A Kiss”. The first plot for the show was when Xiang Qin was about to give her love letter to Zhi Shu, sounds familiar to me because I did it twice. I love to write so what do you expect from a crazy Sorren but to do that insane action. Although as I looked back, those two men was not really worth giving a letter because I stopped liking them. I can’t even remember the feeling anymore.

Right now, I got a big crush with someone and I am so desperate to know if there’ll be a chance that he’ll like me or if he likes me, so I am thinking of sending an email (hahahahaha technology changes everything) instead of the traditional love letter but I am still worried that after one more year I will not remember how I like him.

My sister was teasing me because on the show there were several times that the lead actress promised to stop loving Zhi Shu and so did I. I repeateadly told myself, friends, and sisters that I will stop liking him but I end up still thinking about him, missing him, and wishing one day I’ll found out why did I ever like him in the first place. Here I go again finding reasons and believe me I can think of so many justifications but one thing is sure though, I felt like it so pathetic to experience unrequited crush. I wanted to forget him really but I can’t. I want to feel normal when he’s around but deep within I still feel uneasy. Sigh… I just hope that I will keep my head high, never send a confession email, and simply make him an inspiration and not a source of heartache.